Sometimes we feel it

Sometimes we are hit by a feeling of pieces falling into their place. It's something magical about that. I got that feeling about something just a couple of days ago. Hopefully the feeling is right.

The last weeks have been an emotional rollercoaster. Taking me up and down. In the middle of all those hills and slopes I have been surrounded by the very powerful feeling of love. It has surrounded me, and it has come closer every single second I needed it the most. I must say, I never before noticed the universe to be so fast in giving me what I needed.

It feels a bit like being in the middle of something very bright. It blinds you in a shocking way, but at the same time, it feels warm and safe. It is like pushing the nervs a bit closer to the skin, like sharpening all of your senses. Suddenly you start seing, hearing and feeling things that probably were there the whole time, but not visible to you.

It feels like magic. It feels like being given a key to a door that always was locked.

I felt warm in your light

Time passes. It is amazing, how many thoughts will go through a head in just days. How one day can seem black, and the next full of light.

I've been dreaming lately. Dreams with a purpose, dreams telling me things about life. That's comforting, since many things have been so confusing.

The music is not playing in my day today. Instead I can hear words forming lines within me, I can hear lines forming poetry.

I felt warm in your light
it kept me safe from the dark world
it formed a pillow beneath my head
it made me see
what I never did alone.

I felt warm in your light
a light I never dared to believe
a light so bright I was afraid
a light like that
would easily go out, if I dared to breath.

I did.
I finally took a deep breath,
I found the strength to believe.
SNAP. Darkness.

Turn the other cheek

It seems in life, when it hits us, we turn the other cheek, and open up a door to let it hit us again.

Today is a day, when no other music will do, I will have to turn do Damien. No one else has the brutal words to describe this day.

It is like watching the leaves fall of a tree. You see them all go down, one after another, not able to hinder even the last one's fall. And then comes the ruthless cold that seeks its way to the bone. And it stays, holding the soul in a grip so cold, you feel you cannot move.

Inspiration

I feel inspired these days. I feel like writing, painting, photographing. Painting is something I'm really not good at, but I guess practise makes perfect. I'll try to hang on to this inspiration for a while.


"Vespa"

At the same time I've been a bit worn out lately. Kind of always waiting for the weekend. All the travelling this year has been a reson to be so worn out, but at the same time I guess that's the source of inspiration. Another one is clearly music. I found my a-ha CD's. First I started to listen to the Analogue record. Now I've moved on, backing in history. Oh, those voices remind me of the 80's. And those boys really grew up at some time. When did that happen?

Speaking of inspiration, I just found the art site of Magne Furuholmen. Wow, he's good.

I got a mail from a person I hadn't heard from for five years. That was a surprise! I guess we do have more people within this web of contacts of ours, than we'd expect. He was eager to hear from me - and I'm usually as eager to answer a long lost contact. So I did right away. And then follows silence. Nothing. I guess there's a risk I'll be waiting for five more years now.

I'm also waiting for a Howie Day record I'd put in an order for. Can't wait to listen to it!

Poem of the day

The minutes passing by
pull me closer to you
I cannot wait to feel
the scent of my perfume
on your skin.

Inspiration?
- Missing someone
- Calvin Klein's Euphoria Eau de Parfum
- Weekend

And the world turned white

I woke up half an hour ago and saw a world that during those last hours that I've been sleeping in peace, had turned white. I know exactly what music this calls for, there's no doubt. David Gray's Life in slow motion. That is an album with a sound landscape that makes angels in the snow. He could almost have called the album "Life in snow motion" instead. And this is a perfect day to play it.

There is always something magically beautiful with the first snow that stays for a while. Today it makes me long for days so cold and so white, that there is no question about what to do with the day: Pack the bag with something to eat and drink, pull on the snow shoes and hit either the woods or any open landscape. Those days out in the cold, in the middle of the shimmering snow - they will make you feel that all the worries you ever had are gone, that the future is so bright it's almost blindening. It's amazing what nature and temperature can do to lift us up.

But I'll still have to wait. This snow will melt within a day or two. I will have to wait for a while.