Saturday, January 17, 2009

Thank you

- Thank you
- Why do you thank me, I broke your heart.
- Yes, that you did, and that is why I thank you.
- I don't understand.
- You see, when you broke my heart you did two things.
- I'm listening.
- You shocked me, which in turn opened up my senses to the world. Secondly you showed me a love so strong, it almost pushed me over.
- I still don't understand, I'm sorry I hurt you. I didn't want to.
- Let me explain, this is what happened. When you shocked me with your words I got a cut so deep, I was in a state of total shock. That opened up a channel between my soul and the rest of the world. For a moment I felt like a light would have entered me, like someone would have told me a secret so big, it would alter my life forever. I felt full of light for some moments, and what followed was seeing everything so clear, I had never seen anything so clearly in my life. It was a moment of pure enlightenment, a moment of clarity at its best. For a moment in time, I possessed all the knowledge in the universe, I saw life for was it was, I knew the answers to every question in my heart, and brightest of all, was your love.

- I broke your heart and what you saw, was my love?
- Yes, it sounds strange, doesn't it? But that is how it went. And it gets better, listen to this: After my moment of clarity, the light dimmed, but I still knew it had changed me forever. I was, from that on, a keeper of the light, it was in my heart to stay, even though it wasn't as strong as when it entered me.
- I'm sorry, your words confuse me. Were you in some kind of trance? I have never heard you talk like this before. It confuses me, I feel a bit awkward, to be honest.
- I understand, and I think it's fine. Of course it might be strange, hearing me say things I never would have before. But it is all a positive thing, so don't let it scare you.
- What happened next? You said I did two things.
- Yes, you're right. The second thing you did was show me your love. I never knew how a person is supposed to break another person's heart correctly. Now I do. Like you did it. Breaking it, and then helping it to heal. You did just that, you showed me a love bigger and deeper than I'd ever seen in you before, when you helped me heal my heart. You were there, you didn't disappear, you stayed. And that made me realize: I loved you as ever before, but this time, without expecting anything in return. It felt liberating, I was free at last.

- And from those moments and on, I seem to spot love where I never did before, It's like love would come with a bright light, I see it from far and I recognize the light. Some carry a love bigger than others, some carry the same light as I do nowadays, we seem to recognize each other. It is some kind of magic that I never knew of before.
- I start to see what changed you. I don't fully understand it, though, but I like you found light.
- Thank you, my love. I always knew your role in my life was one of big importance, I just never knew it would be you who would be the one to bring me my light. I am forever grateful, even though it was an accidental thing. And please do not feel intimidated by all this. I still have no requests for you, other than to follow the path that you're on. It suits you.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Adoro tu texto

Cuando conocemos a alquien que nos enseña ese amor, casi no
hay respuestas, algunas preguntas, pero ya todo da igual, por que sabemos que ya no nos será revelado nada mayor a eso.

Con certeza.

Elizabeth

Mika said...

Gracias, Elizabeth, por tus pensamientos.