when I start checking the boxes

This summer I've been realizing things. A season of realization. I've felt moments of clarity, when my own actions and the reasons behind them suddenly have been truly clear to me. It's always strange to notice, how one can trick oneself into things, with totally different premises than one would think. But it does good to see those things. It helps one to learn about oneself.

I've also noticed something this summer. I've noticed that the more things we make happen ourselves, the faster the things around us will move. When waiting for things to happen, they never do, that is something we all can agree on, right? When deciding for ourselves that we won't sit and wait, life will start catching speed around us. I feel like being inside a whirlwind right now. And it is moving faster and faster. I've started it. I pushed the button myself by deciding I won't wait. Life can be at a standstill and boring, I don't care, because I'm in motion.

What do I need to be happy? Love, friends, family and a passion for what I do. Love - well yes I do love, so that is enough, isn't it? As long as I keep blowing love into life I will be happy. Come love back at me or not. Friends - so many of them and as many of them so close to my heart. It makes me so happy to see them joyful, content. I am lucky when it comes to the people in my life. I feel I hit the jackpot. Somebody must be smiling at me from above. Family - yes, please let it stay safe and happy. Having them close to the heart helps when they are far away. Passion. That is as easy as love. It is what makes me get up in the morning and it is what makes me feel strong and capable. Because when there is a flow of passion it is all clear. No questions to be answered, no uncertainties. I follow the line that my heart has already painted. Easy.

Here I am. Happy and content. And when I start checking the boxes, there is not much that has happened around me, but within me. And with all the energy oozing through my skin, through my mouth, from my fingers - I feel love has guided me again. I feel I can't go wrong as long as I have it filling my heart, lighting my soul.