I counted the loves in these words

I promised not to cry.
I promised.
I couldn't make you love me.
And I--
I tried hard to be brave, but I failed.
I had a billion emotions within me.
I laid them all before you.
One by one.
As my love.
Letter by letter.
A sensation of lightness that gave me.
But it was hard--
Knowing, that the closest to perfection would've been
Knowing that I made you feel the same way.
As I did.
Loving you.
Loving me.
I counted the loves in these words.
There were plenty.
And yet--
The tears I decided not to cry.
They were all at my feet.
A river that was.
I saw it run.
Down the street.
It mixed with the rain.
And forever--
The proof of my love.
Was gone.